gluten-free, dairy-free, egg-free, vegan, soy-free, cane sugar-free
I woke up this morning craving childhood. Yes, childhood. As in: not the breakfast item I usually crave. Not a breakfast item at all, in fact. Not even something edible, actually… though if one could eat childhood, hey, I would eat it. Why? I’ve said it before, and I’ll say it again:
You are what you eat.
And who wants to grow up, anyway? I guess that answer depends on how you define “growing up.” I think growing older is beautiful. It’s natural. But growing cynical? There’s nothing natural about a state of mind imposed on us by a culture that subconsciously seeks to imprison us. Growing older is not the same thing as growing cynical. Sadly, far too many people equate them, far too often.
All of us are familiar with this phrase: “grow up!” In fact, this little, biting directive has probably been aimed at each of us at one point or another, and when it landed, the words probably stung like a slap in the face. They were most likely exclaimed in response to an inch of naiveté, pain, fear, or even silliness that we might have let show. But does revealing such vulnerability in any way truly mean we were in the wrong? Or simply in the wrong company? If you ask me, this world needs to reveal a little more of its underbelly. Vulnerability means honesty, and until we are all honest with ourselves and each other, we will always be living in conflict.
Haven’t you ever wondered why life is so simple as a child and immensely complex as an adult? It starts to change the moment we start trying to be what we are not. That could mean backstabbing a childhood friend to win some popularity contest, or going to law school because it seems like the “next thing to do,” or heading a company not because we believe in what it does but rather what it pays. Complication meets us the day we put on the masks which most of us wear in some form for our entire lives. We feel constrained by our society to live a certain way and meet certain expectations. What we fail to realize is our own power. We are society. If all of us were to change individually, wouldn’t we change as a whole as well?
Why doesn’t anyone ever say “grow down!”? That is a far more necessary imperative in this day and age. Let’s trade in all those nasty “grow up”s being tossed around for some “grow down”s instead. We may not be able to eat childhood in the hope that we’ll embody it (nor eat an actual child in order to become one?), but we don’t need to. Childhood is a state of mind. All we need is an evocation. Something to summon that familiar ghost of our past to take us there. My mode of transportation?
My favorite breakfast item of my early youth. With a twist. I eat these pancakes in order to fit into a car seat again. À la sipping from a bottle labeled “Drink me” in order to fit through a door, no? Well, not literally. No actual shrinking occurs, though if I develop a recipe that does incite such metamorphosis, I will report back. This is a transformation of the Soul. Heart. Mind. A way of fitting back into the metaphorical, symbolic car seat.
So. Have a bite of childhood. Laugh. Be silly. Love. And please, grow down.
Butterscotch Pancakes (about 10 pancakes, 4″-5″ in diameter)
1 cup brown rice flour
1/4 cup tapioca flour
1 tsp baking powder
1/2 tsp baking soda
1/8 tsp xanthan gum
1/2 tsp salt
1 1/2 cups hemp milk or unsweetened almond milk
1 heaping Tbsp flax meal mixed with 3 Tbsp hot water
1 Tbsp agave (or maple syrup)
2 Tbsp refined coconut oil, soy free Earth Balance, or unsweetened applesauce
1 tsp vanilla extract
1/4 tsp Nature’s Flavors Butter Flavor Concentrate – ONLY this brand – it’s vegan and gluten-free too! (Omit for regular pancakes!)
Grapeseed oil spray
1. Mix all dry ingredients: flour, baking powder, baking soda, xanthan gum, salt.
2. Once flax meal/hot water mixture has sat for a few minutes and is thick, add this and remaining wet ingredients to dry.
3. Spray grapeseed oil liberally in large skillet over medium heat.
4. Ladle batter onto skillet. Batter should sizzle!
5. Pancakes will form little bubbles. When bubbles pop, flip pancakes to other side and cook till done.
6. Serve with maple syrup and Applegate Turkey Bacon! Yum!